To my friends, family and anyone I have let down...
In regards to my text messages from 2017, I take full accountability and responsibility for the language and substance of those texts. They were inappropriate, hurtful and disrespectful and there is simply no justification for it. Those messages are not how I view women. I regret every message I had sent that morning. I’m very close with my mother, my sister and various other women who have played very meaningful roles in my life. I want to offer my sincere and heartfelt apologizes for my inexcusable words. Most importantly, I want to apologize to Kim’s family about how the substance of my text messages may have affected them during a dark and sad time in their lives. I feel terrible about it all and I have a lot of regret.
There has been a lot of speculation and false assumptions in the circulating social media posts regarding this tragedy. There have also been a number of fake messages regarding Kim’s passing that have been falsely attributed to me, both recently and from the past. Please understand that I’m not responsible for these fake posts and I had nothing to do with them. I understand how anyone would be enraged or upset about these posts, just as I am.
The text messages I did write back in 2017 were not leaked. Rather, when the police came to my home after Kim’s passing, I willingly provided my password to law enforcement to search my phone and I fully cooperated with them for the sake of being totally transparent. I let them take whatever information they needed from my phone, knowing they could be made public. I fully cooperated to answer every question they had regarding this tragedy.
I want to make it very clear that I did not give any illegal substances to Kim. I did check on her to make sure she was ok after her last text messages to me. After checking that she was okay, I walked her and 3 other people that were at my home that morning to the front door where we all said goodbye. Everyone appeared in good spirits and in good shape. I later learned that Kim and the others went to Kim’s friends house where they continued to party for numerous hours, where I was not present.
Still, this explanation is a separate issue from the regrettable language that I have used in my 2017 text messages. For that, I can offer no justification and no excuse. I can only offer an apology and express my deepest regret. I had been advised against making any statements due to an on going civil law suit involving a lot of people. However, some things can’t go unsaid. I understand that the contents of my text messages are troubling and hurtful. I can’t take my words back or unring that bell. I have felt ashamed, embarrassment, regret and disappointment in myself.
During the last 3 years since this tragedy I’ve had a lot of time to reflect on my life. From the bottom of my heart, I have the deepest empathy for Kim’s family and friends. I continue to be saddened by her loss, and I realize that my sadness pales in comparison to those close to her. I also offer my deepest apologies to everyone that I have caused anger, pain and disappointment to as a result of my language.